♠ 10:12 PM

i thought i'd do a quick update since its an hr before bedtime.

daddy has gone overseas again.and i hate only being able to hear him from the phone.who knows how long will he be away this time.damn,i really wish im all grown up and equipped with skills to help him with his business.his brothers are a load of crap doing nothing for the company except to take a hefty sum of salary every month.and why they like working for him is because they dont face the stress they do when they work elsewhere.

mum got into a car accident last night.i was there too.stupid taxi driver demanded for $100 for his stupid bumper,which wasnt even spoilt in any way.it just came lose.our car was badly scratched.

since the exams have past,i feel theres nothing for me to work hard for.life now is like....walking on a long aimless road.i dont know where im heading to and all i can do is work my ass off while waiting for the release of results which lies next feb.and during this period of time,i feel my panic disorder is about to come back again.pls dont ask why or how i got myself into this shit,but i found out i had panic disorder only months ago after doing a lil research about the weird symptoms i have.only my dad knows about my condition.im reluctant to go to the doctor because i feel i can conquer this myself,although i've been struggling with this for 6 yrs already.it comes and go away,and i realise it comes back easily on lonely days.days which i do nothing but spent time imagining things.that was why i went job hunting.i wanted to keep my mind occupied.im trying very hard to make this go away.and im sure i can.i just dont know how long i'll take.paper is gd.if nothing goes wrong,an a2 isnt a problem.if not,probably a b3 or b4?

on a lighter note,it seems like my colleagues like me!they approached the manager today to request for an extension of my contract.and my manager agreed immediately!well,i just want enough money to get that vaio notebook which costs 2299 at sim lim sq.the exact same model i saw selling at harvey norman was 2800+!why is there such a huge difference in the price?do you know?is it the reliability,quality,or what?

i miss you la deh.but i felt much better after saying my piece.i hope i dont frighten you in any way.


love,
panda.

♠ 1:46 PM

since when did we let time interfer with our friendship? *winks.

♠ 12:30 PM

will you,one day,abandon your panda?

♠ 10:58 PM

thanks for picking up that call.

whenever im lost somewhere,and couldnt find my real identity because i've been trying so hard to be the-girl-everyone-likes-talking-to,talking to you would miraculously bring a wake up call to me,assuring me that there is someone out there who knows who i really am,what is stuck up on this puny brain of mine,and how my emotions evolve around problems that are constantly occurring.

thank you,my friend.no.best friend,it shall be.although i have got no right to have you as a best friend because we havent gone tru what others had experienced together,talking to you alone makes me feel my presence.im at the peak of my comfort zone when im able to speak freely to somebody.and that has gotta be you,my sugar.

i'd like to take a lil walk,off this beautiful sunny island for awhile.and im planning to go after cny.i need a break.so bad.

♠ 6:06 PM

no matter how busy life is, make time to show your loved ones you cherish them.
little things can make a hugh difference.
make time not excuses.
i got my com back to operational condition but in the inside its a little jumbled up.
have not been blogging nor smsing but just to let you know, this friendship is gonna last even at times is rust cos we will lust for it to make it last.
do take care and next time i will be back to update a hugh chunk of my NS bumps :)

xoxo.

♠ 9:39 PM

i didnt get to see that post of yours until today,and i wonder why they didnt indicate an update when i signed into blogger a few days ago.anyway,im really happy that you have no intention to end this friendship of ours.

why,because i lost many friends to the army and when they finally ord,we're more of like strangers than friends already.

so i never like seeing friends go into the army,cuz it marks an end to my relationship with my friends.

i was wondering if army would take you away from me,but i guess you wont let that happen,will you?

well i dont like my life right now,although im earning more than enough for myself.the society is like a battlefield,and it really sickens me when colleagues quarrel,when my workload increases,when they all choose to "ask the new temp staff to do your work la",and when the people i interact with everyday are parents and soon-to-be grandparents.i miss school life and how i yearn to go back to school.the money doesnt tempt me to continue working there and chuck the idea of pursuing my studies.i finally understood what they mean by,"money cant buy happiness."im paid relatively well but im not happy.

i'd rather bury myself in maths questions,chinese hanyu pinyin,english compositions,formulas of science,and memorising difficult f&n and geography terms.sigh.

im sorry for the neglection you felt.i always make a promise but never live up to it.

i sincerely hope you're doing fine in army.i think you have pretty cool bunkmates huh?(:

♠ 12:30 PM

well well well, was disappointed to see that this blog was collecting so much dust, tsk tsk. yerps, i did miss you :) how are things going on in life for you? well, please do keep in touch with me more.. i might not take the 1st time to sms you but you can? ns is exhuasting so i might tend to forget to sms ppl.. :) i dont like the drift that became more visible since i enlisted. somehow my brains are not functional this morning, cant type much. so take care! misses.

♠ 8:31 PM

booooooooooo.

its the 30th already.where are uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu~

lost in shopping paradise or what?

i miss you la.and it feels weird to not have you around.

anyway i hope you're having a great time at wherever you are now.


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YAY. sugar rules. its the sweetest! and panda has a pair more the most SEXY eyes. muahaha.

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you are a boy . neither do i care


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